I on the other hand did ok until this morning. I miss her already. I have dreaded this stage in my life. The stage where I am alone. While Noah is still home, he pretty much stays to himself. He goes to a developmental disability program all day and watches tv when he gets home. He rarely eats with us and doesn't participate in family activities. It is just different.
I know this is a growing time for me. I miss all my kids and the time when we were all together. I am very proud of the people they have become and the way they live their lives. They are all such good people. Still I miss the role I played as a mother with my children at home. This is a new chapter for me in my life. I need to figure out who I am in this new phase. I have always found purpose and a sense of worth in what I do as a mother. That is changed now and I need to find my worth in this empty nest. My life has been redefined and I have to figure out what my purpose is.
Who am I? where am I going? what am I here for? These are all questions I need to answer in an earthly way here. I know the eternal answers, but I don't know the here and now. Hopefully in the days and months to come I will figure it out.